This never ceases to fail.
Best friend trying to be something more.
Being there for good friend as she goes through some shit.
New guy at work - interest.
Halloween night: good. Good friend in hospital after she stops breathing and I have no other choice but to call emergency services.
Day after: good friend still clearly going through shit. I go on date with new guy from work = age difference is questionable but wonderful time. Best friend no longer ignoring. Believes he can be just friends.
So many emotions/feelings. I’m going to bed.
There is a song that says “love the other slightly less than what you love in return”
That’s all fine and dandy but what happens when you love the person as a friend, a brother even but all he wants is everything about you, heart and soul…
He knows me. Better than most.
Yet I desire more. I want more.
He will not have me.